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Desiderata

by Modern Instincts

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1.
When I go forwards you go backwards One step further down the ladder Can't believe just what they're seeing Hedonistic souls and heathens If there's no hell let's all go apeshit No apologies for saying it There's a marker on the horizon Don't know from which side it's rising In the water in the air All the same to you without a care If no one's watching let's get greedy Two for you and none for me It doesn't matter what you speak It's on your conscience, everyone can see We’ll all get married in a church Anything that burns will work Would you let them see you wince When your devil waves his hands to make you flinch? Phantasmic geometry Find the door and open without risk Fighting over desiderata But they're not needs, they're only things you want Now the storm has come and gone Don't know which side I crash landed on An odyssey for another day Finding, spending, losing, saving face What has risen might just sink What has sunken might just rise
2.
Don't do it you will There's no need for regrets Enter the house of horrors And you'll feel electric There's a counterculture Can't this be one of those times That I say what I think And you don't read between the lines So come to me if you want my advice For all the ways that you could break the ice And become familiar with this forward psychology Are you suggesting that I should ask questions Like "what is your favorite Clint Eastwood film?" to fit the build? Well I'll tell you honey, it's Good Bad and Ugly The way that you want me to wear cuff links like an afterimage I'm not that crazy but if you could say to me Exactly what you would like me to do we'd save an hour or two So turn back the clocks get ahold of your moxie Ready aim fire the poison dart at the heart I was really into me until I saw you and the horse that you rode in on Quadruple positives And a chance to relax Go for the jugular Come on let's make a pact Seems like we're never on The same piece of the paper You can say that again And I'll save it for later All the ways that you could break the ice I'm not a poet but it must be nice To become familiar with this forward psychology
3.
Turn the months by page, the book named after you And its day by day, remember what we choose Words of innocence we cannot pronounce With due diligence we could be like that now Tessellated rooms well-read but misinformed In the lightened moon we crave and we are torn Motives ulterior, keep your glasses on Hard to feel superior, victims of contretemps But I've been trying not to get much worse (how am I to phrase that?) If I do it would not be a first (I’m not supposed to say that) Take a picture and go back in time (it could take us way back) To December 1969 Skip ahead some time, wait for Saturn's return So we ossify after what we've learned Ten questions from someone who doesn't know a thing This delirium marked like a coffee ring Late to the party, subtle escape I think I liked me better that way After all this time away show me what you learned Twenty thousand times around it feels like I have turned
4.
What are you smiling about? I'll bet you think you're smart With all your knowledge of conquerors, history, sixteenth century art What are you smiling about? You'd better put that away Save it for another appropriately bad day What are you laughing about? May I ask what is funny? The notion that I'm charming you isn't persuasive honey What are you laughing about? I must have missed the punch line You're having a riot right in front of the police lights The day I pushed through the spinning door Saw you behind the desk A buzzard sings and a saga begins Can I guess how it ends? What are you dying about? Can't even catch your breath I make myself vulnerable and subject to utmost regret What are you dying about? Front gate won't let me in Making the rest of us always seem like plebeians The day I pushed through the spinning door Saw you behind the desk A spider sings and a saga begins Can I guess how it ends? When it's gone it's like tooth decay The enamel of your smile I think about it for the rest of the day It fades after a while Never staying white But lasting through the night
5.
When he went back to the black lagoon No one was surprised Cause he was mad and you were too A combination most unwise Pissing off the world means two separate things When you're on the edge Stuck in cubicles; put all our thoughts in bins That crease the middle and tear the ends What I'll say is that I didn't see it all that night The universe will still be fine Somewhere between the observations and blocked memories Your guess is as good as mine The flowers were screaming his favorite compromise But some days it's not enough He was caught dreaming of tempers on the rise Sounds like ugly stuff Like a rigged shotgun that didn't know why they were there I wasn't listening that night I came to my wit's end but I was well within my rights And your guess is as good as mine What I'll say is that I didn't get to bed that night All my dreams were much too real for that to be There's a special place in hell for chupacabra eyes like his But your guess is as good as mine
6.
Fog on the bridge The clouds in the sky I know a place where the air is grey And troubles multiply It must be nice To go home like them Please close the door, but not from this side This house is condemned You said please don't give up on me when I had my doubts Now all of that is off of the table and the lights are out Fingertips together Lips in an arc Yanked off the stage with a cane around my neck A commemorative mark Now you've said a mouthful A nefarious plot Until the end I'll remain doubtful 'Til the blood underneath my sutures coagulates and clots It slipped through the cracks in front of our face The ones that we saw but just couldn't wait To fix and repair, it's as good as new 'Cause all that I wear is the straight jacket gift from you (You said you'd be happy if you looked like that) The straight jacket gift from you (But I know you'd only be happy if the sun turned black)
7.
Hourglass 04:17
You saw me today then looked left and right Something so different that didn't show by night Staring at your laces you don't recognize these faces Scraping my words off the bottom of your shoe Into one ear and the other they come through Some people would feel vexed but I know what happens next You can't begin to imagine the things as they happened last night Where saying is doing and playing is using but it still seems right I don't know you but the question that I've gotta ask Is this all true? I turn the hourglass over and I start again In time I’ll see that there's no game to win Just a hundred ways to lose, always nice to pick and choose Confidence is arrogance, arrogance is bliss I look in the mirror but I surely always miss A simple rearrange or how things have so much changed Besides the red marks on my face, the rest was pretty tame I saw you today but you held up the moat Looking at me through a kaleidoscope I saw you today but when I looked in your eyes Nothing reflected, I was not surprised Now that you've shown me how cruel that the world is I'll see you tonight If there is intent then I'll leave an imprint where the sand is white I don't know you but all I see is broken glass Is this all true?
8.
I watched a film today Set in the strangest place I though it looked like fun But I was three years late They all had schizophrenia Nervous wrecks I'm tellin' ya They thought it looked like fun To be the next black dahlia In this murder mystery movie Where all my friends are gone I could scream and shout The only ones who would hear me now Would make sure I don't stick around long The actors looked familiar Their characters peculiar They got me interested Then disappeared to nowhere Investing too much Fears and phobias It got them interested And got me all worked up He says he hates it when I'm right It doesn't happen anyway She'll probably fall for the type of guy Who ties his shirt around his waist Why would you wear a raincoat When you could put on a tux? Whether it's bad or worse At least I think I know that much On screen they see Us complete the autopsy on the joke that was to be But no clue what to do We'll lay down instead of move but still wish for something new In a murder mystery movie Where the crime is never solved They can close their eyes To try to take a look inside But the history's in the walls
9.
Hide behind the wall Kicking off ladders and throwing stones To hit them on the head Silence the climbing and creeping moans With contrails all around Is it impossible that you're not thinking clear? Bats in the belfry stir But the air is much too heavy here We should be above this It's not like we're new to this game If I'm a dime a dozen Why haven't you forgotten my name? Spending my time reading your ten dollar words Making me feel like I'm the king of the worms If you hit send when you could've hit erase Hell, well then why don't you say it to my face? Panoramic views Of wind-blown trees and lighthouses A place of no surprise Where the days of the week have no consequence Standards set aside And tragic figures put to sleep Sarcastic back and forth's Never ended with an angled cut so deep We should be above this Looking down on crowds in the rain Instead we're getting colder Until whatever tact is left wanes Play the game, check my phone Feeling like being alone Isn't quite the worst fate Nothing thrown in my face Dominos in a line Black jacks in the night Lose it all, I don't care What I had buyer beware (you, you’re trying to say?) I've had almost enough Fifteen sixteenths and I'm calling your bluff If none of it matters it shouldn't be tough What's on the other end of your handcuff?
10.
I heard that I was beautiful today But I can't stop the violence or the grimace on a face She was feeling ugly and it made me stay awake That's not salted caramel that's just tears over a cake Now everybody knows just like I'm dying on the outside The conflict of interest, inability to confide But in an alternate reality One in which she says to me I want you trust that it's true I wanna hear it everyday there's no one for you but me If after midnight all this shit turns into pumpkins I'll live without the moon, without stars, let me have this one thing Until I build this contraption to take me far away I'll refamiliarize with the terrestrial and mundane But I wait for a reality One in which she says to me

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released November 28, 2017

Personnel:
Jason Tuori - vocals, guitar, bass
Jesse Gillenwalters - vocals, keys, bass, synths, guitar, drums, samples, engineering, mastering, production
Sam Roux - bass (tracks 1 & 6), drums (tracks 1, 7, 8, & 9)
Matt Kingsley - guitar (track 9)
Modern Instincts - production
Anthony Frachioni - additional engineering (tracks 1, 2, 3, 4, 7, & 10)
Graham Waks - additional engineering (tracks 1, 5, 6, 7, 8, & 9)
Evan M Cohen - album art

Recorded at:
Left Plus Right Studios - East Nashville, TN (tracks 1, 5, 6, 7, 8, & 9)
Pudding Skin Records - Highland Park, NJ (tracks 1, 2, 3, 4, 7 & 10)
Nashville, TN

Mixed and mastered in Nashville, TN

Special thanks to the Modern Instincts fam for the constant live support.

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Modern Instincts is an alternative rock act consisting of Jason Tuori (vocals, guitar), Sam Roux (drums), Tom Powers (guitar, vocals), Ryan Cogswell (bass), Emily Ormsby (keys, vocals), & Jesse Gillenwalters (vocals, keys, synths, drums)

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